I asked God to use me

I told God that He is mine and I am His

He may use me for his glory as he sees fit

My life is in his hands, and I know the whole wide world is in His hands

I told Him that I trust and believe in Him as the Alpha Omega

The First and Last, Creator of the World and everything within it

As God is always listening, long before I even knew it, He had already done so!

The closer I am to Him the more He allows my spirit to be made aware of how and where

I must say, the human in me took a little while to realize many happenings

I have acknowledged that in the path of being a willing servant of God

There will be many trials, challenges, temptations, Judas, and goliaths to face

But God has reminded me, like David He has been preparing me way before my parents met,

For He knew me beforehand.

What I know for sure is Mighty God the Savior oversees all, has the last move and words

Everything has a beginning and an ending!

All that has been done in the dark shall come to light sooner or later!  As above so below! 

Ms. G

#Love.#Faith.#Hope.#motivational.#Blessings.#Inspirational.#happy#healing#Godislight#feelinggood

Have you look up at the Sky lately?

 

Have you look up at the Sky lately?

As I drive on a bright lovely afternoon

The vehicles were slow moving on the highway.

Despite the eighty-degree weather,

I felt cool refreshing air as I rolled down my car windows.

The beautifully clear blue sky just opened itself to me.

I can easily distinguish the vibrant white clouds from the sky.

As deep as I was in my thoughts and life’s occurrences.

My heart simply opens with a sense of peace and love.

Like God himself just whisper to me to look up at him

At that instant, I felt so much joy and serenity.

So, I smile still gazing up feeling connected to my Source.

I receive the love offered to me by God and the Universe!

Then, it dawns on me; when was the last time I looked up at the sky?

Feeling grateful for the experience, Thank you my Lord and Savior for the reminder.

Ms. G

#Love.#Faith.#Hope.#motivational.#Blessings.#Inspirational.#happy#healing#Godislight

Resistance

Can resistance really persist when one resists challenges accompany with life?

Enlighten by the love my God and Savior demonstrates day in and out

Why fear storms when the sun will shine even brighter after?

Subsequent to fear, joy shall be my compensation

Melancholic situations or events shall too past in time

Worrisome should be a reminder to keep my thoughts positive

For my gift at birth is to control and direct my mind to whatever I so choose and desire

Relax, I said to myself as I finally got it…

Sorrow no longer can ravage my heart and soul

Because I am child of God almighty protected under his protection

What goes up must come down sooner or later

All malice and silly acts must be stopped or undone

Everything has its beginning and ending period

My God is an awesome and marvelous God

Ms. G

Leave me the hell alone

Leave me the hell alone

Leave me the hell alone, please……. 

Who do you think you are?

I’ll tell you Mr. you're not unforgettable nor irreplaceable

You must have been out of your mind if you’d though differently

I am not bitter; I just want you to leave me the hell alone

You were the one mistake that I am entitled to on earth….

You must have been dropped on your head as a baby……

Unlike you I am not a parasite, I know when it’s really over……

Go on……keep on stepping and leave me the hell alone

Ms. G

Rubbing you off

Rubbing you off

Right at this moment I feel so liberated to finally rub you off for good

Unbelievably…..it took me a while to get here…..but I did it

Being present and realizing that I am out of the sink hole....I wonder how long it’s been

Behold….I didn’t grasp it at first but now that the sky is crystal clear, I can own it

I can own that I gave you control when I fall for your silly games….

Nothing could have prepared me for this…. to realize such dark place existed within….

Grateful however, this experience will help mold me into the person I met to be

Yanking back to reality I become conscious, it feels great and refreshing to breathe as I once did

Options, decisions, desires, experiences, lessons of life, spirits, consciousness……..

Unwilling to drown I crawled my way back…..I am now in full control and stronger than ever

Off the wagon I stumbled, but victory is mine as I dust you off

For every soul is placed on this planet earth to be free……..I needed me back before going

Forward to free my spirit as God intended; we were met to meet… you and me, huh!

Ms. G

“Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words.”
                                                                                                          

 Robert Frost

You really misunderstood me…….

You really misunderstood me…….

You thought you really knew me……..right?

How did you figure when you never took the time to get to know me…?

The real me…….

Do you have any idea what I was going through? Or did you even care to know…..?

Did you know I often cried myself to sleep……?

Did you know how scared I was….?

Did you know I was already an orphan……..?

Did you know how challenging my life was at the time?

Did you know how much I was hoping for you to really look into my eyes and see………

Things and life weren’t as they might have appeared my dear……

What you thought you saw or knew was the illusion you created to justify the action of your decision ………….

In reality I was longing for your love, attention, compassion, understanding, easiness….

Longing for you to make me feel safe enough to let you in my journey……

So you see, you really misunderstood me………

Ms. G

"No vision and you perish;
No ideal, and you're lost;
Your heart must ever cherish
Some faith at any cost.
Some hope, some dream to cling to,
Some rainbow in the sky,
Some melody to sing to,
Some service that is high."

Harriet Du Autermont

You See

You see, I have been thinking

Thinking about the time we spent…….

The intimate moments we spent in each other’s arms

You see, part of me wants more of you…

The other is ready to let go

For it feels so…

Ms. G

Feeling of Betrayal…..

Feeling of Betrayal…..

Feeling betray by life and nature

Envious of precious success that keeps me daunting

Everything appears at a standstill……..

Looking at my efforts in the hope of a grasp for success

Imagining when all my hard work will really pay off

No one knows how hurt and betrayed I feel……

Grouping my thoughts to still hope………

On the other hand, feeling lost, sad, and despair

Feeling far from the dream I still desperately want to come to life

Behold still I can hear God shouting……..

Erosion from lust filled my heart

Time is so precious but maybe short lived

Realizing how naïve the little kid in me must have been

Absent perhaps from reality of life

Yet I still want to keep the dream alive

All will eventually falls into place, I hope…

Looking up in heaven for my Lord to keep my sanity……..

Ms. G

In The Depths of Solitude

I exist in the depths of solitude

Pondering my true goal

Trying 2 find peace of mind

And still preserve my soul

Constantly yearning 2 be accepted

And from all receive respect

Never comprising but sometimes risky

And that is my only regret

A young heart with an old soul

How can there be peace?

How can I be in the depths of solitude

When there r 2 inside of me

This duo within me causes

The perfect opportunity

2 learn and live twice as fast

As those who accept simplicity

Tupac Amaru Shakur

Do you remember that night?

Do you remember that night?

It was a beautiful and fun night……….do you remember?

We had so much fun at diner ……do you remember?

Diner started at 9 but didn’t end until we were told the restaurant’s about to close

Do you remember now or do you need more clues?

Conversation was smoothly and easily amusing……do you remember?

I can still smell that pleasant warm night…..

We had diner, then enjoyed a little exotic entertainment….

On the drive back with the car windows’ down

As “Do you believe in love after love” come on the radio….

Both, you and I singing our hearts and lungs out

And were as loud as we could as we sang and smiled to each other

Do you remember now my dear ex-lover…?

I was just imagining how beautiful of a moment ……

Ms. G

Looking at her….

Looking at her…..

I look at her and wonder; what did you see in me?

On the surface she and I are just the opposite

Which makes me wonder, again….why were we together?

Was it just a shift for you or did you always see her kind….on the surface!

I don’t know her, but I am curious about her personality…….

What is she like?  Is she a little silly, kind, caring, witty….?  

Is it just easier or fun with her….?

Please enlighten my curiosity …….

Ms. G

I Cry

I Cry 

Sometimes when I'm alone

I Cry,

Cause I am on my own.

The tears I cry are bitter and warm.

They flow with life but take no form

I Cry because my heart is torn.

I find it difficult to carry on.

If I had an ear to confiding,

I would cry among my treasured friend,

but who do you know that stops that long,

to help another carry on.

The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.

Then to stop and see what makes one cry,

so painful and sad.

And sometimes...

I Cry

and no one cares about why.

Tupac Amaru Shakur

Ambition Over Adversity

Take one's adversity

Learn from their misfortune

Learn from their pain

Believe in something

Believe in yourself

Turn adversity into ambition

Now blossom into wealth

                                                   

Tupac Amaru Shakur

The Rose that Grew from Concrete

The Rose that Grew from Concrete

Did you hear about the rose that grew

from a crack in the concrete?

Proving nature's law is wrong it

learned to walk with out having feet.

Funny it seems, but by keeping it's dreams,

it learned to breathe fresh air.

Long live the rose that grew from concrete

when no one else ever cared.

Tupac Amaru Shakur

And 2Morrow



And 2Morrow

Today is filled with anger

fueled with hidden hate

scared of being outcast

afraid of common fate

Today is built on tragedies

which no one wants 2 face

nightmares 2 humanities

and morally disgraced

Tonight is filled with rage

violence in the air

children bred with ruthlessness

because no one at home cares

Tonight I lay my head down

but the pressure never stops

knawing at my sanity

content when I am dropped

But 2morrow I c change

a chance 2 build a new

Built on spirit intent of Heart

and ideals

based on truth

and tomorrow I wake with second wind

and strong because of pride

2 know I fought with all my heart 2 keep my

dream alive

Tupac Amaru Shakur

Still I Rise

You may write me down in history

With your bitter, twisted lies,

You may trod me in the very dirt

But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?

Why are you beset with gloom?

'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells

Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,

With the certainty of tides,

Just like hopes springing high,

Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?

Bowed head and lowered eyes?

Shoulders falling down like teardrops.

Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?

Don't you take it awful hard

'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines

Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,

You may cut me with your eyes,

You may kill me with your hatefulness,

But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?

Does it come as a surprise

That I dance like I've got diamonds

At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame

I rise

Up from a past that's rooted in pain

I rise

I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,

Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear

I rise

Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear

I rise

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,

I am the dream and the hope of the slave.

I rise

I rise

I rise.

Maya Angelou

My heart aches

My heart aches 

Dear universe what exactly do you have for me?

I fell something great will come my way

But I’ve been longing for so long……

Come on……..mother earth!

Please alleviate this deep painful agony......  Amen!

Just Wondering.......

Just wondering……….

Do you still think about me?

Am I still the one with the magic touch?

Have you had any subconsciously desirable and erotic dreams of us?

What do you missed most about us?

Am I still the best masseuse ever?

Just thought I’ll ask……..

Ms. G